Out of the blue

Lately songs have been really speaking to me ......

"Out of the blue" by Delta goodrem

A new beginning
A new chapter of my life
Started the day
When I thought
It could be my last
My eyes were wide shut but I hadn't given up
Just thought I'd be walking the world alone

Out of the blue
There I met you
Showed me a life I can't see without you
And theres just no way
That I can fight these emotions
Your energy running through me
Nobody can renew me like you

Out of the blue
Can this be true?

Family and friends they were my life
I wasn't one for butterflies
But you gave me love that I can't disguise
And there will be times when we're apart
I want you to know you're in my heart
Growing into a beautiful garden

No emotions
My whole body felt like ice
Needed to feel that the sun would shine my way
My world had turned to dust
But I had my faith and trust
Just thought I'd be walking the world alone

Family and friends they were my life
I wasn't one for butterflies
But you gave me love that I can't disguise
And there will be times when we're apart
I want you to know you're in my heart
Growing into a beautiful garden

Out of the blue
There I met you
I can’t believe that this happened so soon
And theres just no way
That I can fight these emotions
Your energy running through me
(Out of the blue)
(There I met you)
(Showed me a life) I can't see without you
(Out of the blue) Without you
There I met you, you
(Showed me a life) I can't see without you

There will be times when we're apart
I want you to know you're in my heart
Growing into a beautiful garden (Finally come true)
(Out of the blue)
(There I met you)

so ..... I'll say Delta goodrem isn't one of my favourites...
but this song really spoke to me.

lately, i am really beginning to realise that there is something different about me.
I am realising all that God has done and is doing in and through my life.
I can see where i am now and where i was last year and whoa talk about a dramatic change :)

The lyrics of this song reflect on a hard time in Delta Goodrem's life ; she had enough faith to get through it and see something great on the other side .

The words :"My whole world had turned to dust" really show what happens to people when they are in a hard time.
Some people may choose to ignore what is going on and to live in a false reality ...
Others decide to keep living.. chin up, get on with it.

Or like me, people can choose to numb everything out...
which really destroys people on the inside.
Happiness and self value can turn into bitterness and low self-esteem
and where there once was ambitions and dreams ....
there is a struggle to deal with the everyday.

But there is the good news ......
For the lonely, opressed and broken
God is love.
No matter what has happened he can turn situations around for your good.
For all those who are unloved God, your father in heaven loves you unconditionally
For all those from Broken families ....
God is your Dad
For those who are lonely....
Jesus is your friend
And i have seen what amazing things can happen from asking jesus christ into your heart ...

Jesus brings new life for people who choose it....
God Is changing lives for poeple all over the planet for all those who seek him

I know that i am a new creature in christ because i am doing more and more things every day that i never thought were immaginable

God is working with me in the area of relationships
he has brought so much healing into my heart
and i am learning how to trust again .

another thing that i am learning to do is to trust in myself .......

Change is not something that you do
it is something that you allow to come into your life by the authority of God.

It doesn't happen like magic
and god is not some magical time travelling wizard that sprinkles gold fairy dust and makes everything better.....

NO WAY

it happens by making some good choices and stepping out in faith

The first thing to do is to accept god into your heart and believe that jesus died and rose again for your sins so that you might live a great life .

The next thing is to accept God's love. He loves you unconditionally....
more than you would ever know and he can't wait to get to know you a little better

Then get involved in church

God will start to move .......

GOD CHANGES LIVES

...... i know from what he has done and is dong in my life ..........
....... i am no lnger the same broken person i used to be. I am god's princess with a hope and a future.
It is true that i have horrible things behind me...
But i have so much ahead of me and i am excited
i love life
when times are hard (like at the moment)
i know i will pull through because i can do all things through christ who strengthens me.

I know that this has been a long post, but i have one more thing to say :


THIRD DAY "Cry Out To Jesus"



To everyone who's lost someone they love
Long before it was their time
You feel like the days you had were not enough
when you said goodbye

And to all of the people with burdens and pains
Keeping you back from your life
You believe that there's nothing and there is no one
Who can make it right

There is hope for the helpless
Rest for the weary
Love for the broken heart
There is grace and forgiveness
Mercy and healing
He'll meet you wherever you are
Cry out to Jesus, Cry out to Jesus

For the marriage that's struggling just to hang on
They lost all of their faith in love
They've done all they can to make it right again
Still it's not enough

For the ones who can't break the addictions and chains
You try to give up but you come back again
Just remember that you're not alone in your shame
And your suffering

When your lonely
And it feels like the whole world is falling on you
You just reach out, you just cry out to Jesus
Cry to Jesus

To the widow who struggles with being alone
Wiping the tears from her eyes
For the children around the world without a home
Say a prayer tonight

hey hey hey

isn't life crazy?
well in short yes

but truly life is what you make it so there is always the choice:
have a crazy, busy yet amazing life OR let life pass me by

Jesus came so that we might have life and life to the fullest
john 10:10

and since i know that i am not living for me
but for the king of kings and for the cause of the cross

i am going to make the most of life and the opportunities it brings
one saying i never get tried of hearing is :
'if you are not living on the edge you are taking up too much space '

so i reckon let's live life to the max
even when things are so busy and i can hardly catch my breath.....
when things seem so out of control

I need to learn that things go beyond my own control now
my life is in the hands of my dad
the king of kings and lord of lords

God is helping me through life
and this season is all about building consintency in my life
and giving me wisdom and supernatural strength to face challenges
and make the right choices in the middle of my storms

and to learn to trust the friends he has put around me
to not give up and when things are so busy and so hard
just to hold on to what he has started and to lean on my friends.
How powerful is connection and fellowship?
sometimes i forget that the people around me have something to offer into my situations ..... wisdom and advice

I need to stand in the middle of the storm.....
cry out to god ...
keep praising and worshipping god
and above all else
keep walking out this season of craziness
because it is building consintency
when life is crazy
the thing that needs to stay the same
is my actions,
my thoughts and my words
and to all things unto god

keep going to church every week and serving in the house of God

..... it is all about the preparation and the foundation

some more song lyrics

"Scream" by ZOEGIRL

Does anybody know how I feel?
Sometimes I'm numb, sometimes I'm overcome
Does anybody care what's going on?
Do I have to wear my scars like a badge on my arm
For you to see me, I need release

Do I have to scream for you to hear me?
Do I have to bleed for you to see me?
'Cause I grieve, you're not listening to me
Do I need to scream?

Has anybody seen what's been done?
Where was my defense? No one heard my protest
The eyes of God were watching me
It's time to make my peace, let it go and be released
So I can breathe again
I'm on my knees

I've been marked, set apart
But I'm cut so deep and afraid of the dark
One drop of blood from the hole in Your hand
Is enough to heal me and make me stand

'Cause I'm clean, He is listening to me

I don't have to scream for Him to hear me
Don't have to bleed for Him to see me
'Cause I'm clean, He is listening to me
I don't have to scream
I don't have to bleed
'Cause I'm clean, He is listening
And I don't have to scream

sorry

can you help me ?
Put a bag over my head- so you can't see
the pain that is written all over my face.
Help me put an end to this 'disgrace'

Sometimes the pain from inside creeps outward
and people see more of me than they should -
my pain, my troubles and my fears
Let's just pretend that i'm not here.

Maybe if we hope enough -
I will disappear in a puff
maybe if we pray
i will get out of the way

Maybe, just maybe nothing is real
Because it certainly doesn't feel
like i am here
when i have to hold back every tear

When i am in the way of everyone
and my baggage weighs a tonne.
When i am a waste of space
and i am out of place.

When i am more trouble than i am worth
and people regret my birth.
When my existance brings pain
and i drive others insane.

Nothing seems real when i have to appologise for being me ......
Well i am sorry that others see life differently.
I am sorry that i get in the way
and that i have too much to say.

I am sorry if i upset you in any way
i am just trying to get through the day.
I'll only bother you if i have to ...
i'll get on with what i have to do

And maybe if we pray enough-
i will disappear in a puff ......
Maybe just maybe if we pray
I will eventualy go away.......

I heard this song on the sunshine F.M this moring and it really touched me

"Worth It All" by FFH

O Child you’ve never known
How I really feel
Cause you’ve never been shown
O child, you’ve never known
That my love is real
Cause you’ve never been shown
I’m about to show you for myself
So listen to me,
You don’t need nobody else – cause

chorus:
You are mine, you are loved
You have always been thought of
When you hurt I feel it every time
You are mine, you are loved
And I’m never giving up
Till I’ve dried all the tears you cry
Long before you took a breath
I took your pain upon my chest
I knew your name, I heard you call
It was worth it all
It was worth it all
You are worth it all

O child, it wasn’t fair
How they walked away Left you standing there
O child, I saw your tears
Was with you everyday
Through the lonely years
I’m about to bring back what was lost
So listen to me
You don’t need nobody else – cause

No matter where you go, I’ll come and find you
You are precious to me…My everything
No matter what they’ve done I will repair you
You’re a masterpiece to me…Only I can see
That underneath the hurt and the pain
Is a picture of me

O child, where did you go
Please don’t walk away
I love you so
So here I come to say

chorus
you are mine, you are loved
you have always been thought of
when you hurt i feel it every time
You are mine, You are loved
And I'm never giving up
Till i've dried all the tears you cry
Long before you took a breath
I took your pain upon my chest
I knew your name , I heard you call
It was worht it all
It was worth it all
You are worth it all

i love you

Do you find it hard to tell someone "i love you"

it is an interesting thing to think about......

all of my life i have been told that people never care
and that is is considered a sign of weakness to show emotion or let anyone in

i can remeber my family that were constatly living in a state of numbness where no-one ever talked to one another and i remeber that all of my friend's mums would tell them that they loved them and that they were special ......

All my mum ever did was tell me that everyone in the world hated me and that no-one wanted to be near me .....

and i was such a horrible person.... that she wished i hadn't been born

When i came to Sunset i was so overwhelmed by the love and the happiness ....

i felt so uncomfortable and out of place.
in the past when i recieved a compliment i would hit that person who said it

Now i still feel uncomfortable but i say thankyou anyway....

A few months ago when i started a new school
my friend sent me a text message every day to make sure that i was o.k.
she would always say 'love ya ' at the end ....
after a few days i couldn't handle it anymore and i threw my phone

so i began to challenge the impact i felt by those words " i love you"
because i had been told that everybody hates me

i found it extremely hard to accept.

Months later i was having a conversation with another friend.
we were talking about similar things ....
we were both struggeling with this.
she had been talking to someone else that had told her......

" people don't say i love you just because they can ....
they say it because they mean it and we never know what will happen tomorrow "

Even though the bible is full of passages that tell us about god's love for us i still have trouble accepting that.
and because of the negative relationships that i have experienced i can find it hard to accept that i have real friends that love and care for me

It is a struggle but i continue to make the choice every day to put god first in my life and live for him......

and i try to accept that i am loved.

it is not a weakness to show people that you care for them...
Being open with your emotions is actually a huge strength
even though it can be so uncomfortable at times.

so i am trying a new thing ....
whenever i write my emails and text messages from now on...
i will be putting 'love ya ' at the end

So that i can return the love that i have recieved from others ....

God really has answered my prayers

years ago when i was so lonely and broken i longed for friends
and i have found so many .....

God really is bringing healing to my broken heart and even though life is sooo tough at the moment i wouldn't have it any other way

change

I found this on www.christianstories.com


Change

By: Stacey s


I sit and think of what I used to be.
It wasn't me it was what everyone else wanted to see.
I had to change to fit in the crowd.
My kindness and unbroken rules were not allowed.


Soon drugs were my only option to be cool.
But now I can only think that I was such a fool.
I was a fool to not do what I knew was right.
I gave-in to soon and thought that I had lost the fight.


But now I realize that the devil didn't win!
For I have repented of every sin.
I did what is good again when I turned to the Lord.
He became exactly what I wanted and changed my whole world.


I choose now to not follow but to leave.
I have found what I truly want in life, everything I need.
With the Lord's helping hand I have now found a way.
And I truly know that if lean on him, I can conquer all the battles that I face every day.

hmmm............
That was an encouragement

reflection

have you ever stopped to look back on your life?

i feel so old saying this
but right now i am in a season where god is revealing to me how far i have come since i started coming to church

it has been less than a year and already i have been on such a journey of personal growth
i have changed so much in many areas but there is still so much to go .

God is now trying to work on an area that is soooo painful, and i have been resisting and ignoring him for too long now

how many times in life do people hold back because of fear or because they have been hurt
more than you think.

I do all the time.
But i try to remember that anything worth doing is worth doing right .......
if it means working through hurt , pain and discomfort .....
well then i have to do what my dad always said to me

" suck it up katrina, and don't let anyone know you hurt.... never cry because they don't care"

by the way that is sooo not true
i have been told all my life that no-one cares.....
i have learnt.
God cares and he only wants to work through the pain so that i can finally move on ....
and grow into the woman of god he sees me as.....
not as what people have told me i am like....
he wants me to grow not shrink

and i will have to learn to let go and let god have his way....
and when it hurts
cry out to him.....
keep standing through the storm and praising him
and to hold on to the ones that i love for comfort and support
because god has put friends around me to support and love me so i can grow into all he has for me .

strength

Father God i pray, please forgive me
for all i am doing
It is not your's but my own doing
please forgive me for all that you see

Lord give me strength i pray
in all i do
to live for you
and to get to the end of evey day

Though my body may be broken

This is a poem that i read off www.christianstories.com that really spoke to me

Though My Body Be Broken
By: Stan Howerton

Though my body be broken and pain does abound
Though my life lay in pieces all around
Though my loved ones reject me and they all put me down
Though my children refuse my counsel
and believe me but a clown
Though my God does not hear me
He makes not a sound
Though my prayers go unanswered
and lie upon the ground
Though Satan assaults me
and pursues me like a hound
Though my mind is do pressured and I feel as I am about to drown
Though my strength is fading and my heart begins to pound
Though winds blow against meand darkness all surrounds
Though my faith is so tested
it must be found sound
For I am determined not to let go
But cling to the promises I have found.

Submitted by Stan Howerton

That is exactly how i feel-
but i know that the attitudes i choose in the middle of a challenge effect how god will me in the future
all i can do right now is hold on to him and what he has already started .

cleaning out

ugh : This is so good .....
i read it off www.christianstories.com

cleaning out

by phil ware

Whew! It was tough, but we got it done. Instead of waiting till Spring, we launched into cleaning out the garage and the attic. It seemed like a good time -- it was the right temperature, we were going to have to put away the Christmas stuff anyway, and all of us were home. Sure, it was a big, dirty, ugly job, but we launched into it.
We've gotten rid of a bunch of junk that we were saving for no apparent reason. Anything that hasn't been used in several years is now gone. We either threw it away or set it aside for a resale shop. No more tripping over it. No more arguing about it. No more letting it clutter up our lives. Our garage and attic are neat, clean, and uncluttered. It's a minor miracle.
Now comes the hard part: cleaning out the junk in my heart and head that I've been saving for no apparent reason! It's one thing to get a new start on a new year, a new day, or a new life, but for it to be really new, we've got to put down the old bags of garbage and junk. As Rich Mullins put it in one of his last songs, it often seems "we can't see what's ahead and we cannot get free of what we've left behind" (from the song "Hard to Get").
But we can get free. We can clean out the clutter. We may not know what's ahead, but we can let ourselves go free from what's behind. It's not easy. We're not like God who can forgive the past and then forget it. In fact, the more we try to forget something, the more we seem to remember it. But we can quick picking it up and looking at it. We can set it aside and make room for new things. We don't have to keep tripping over the same clutter. We can clean it out by giving it up to the Lord -- let him forgive it and take lordship over it. But we must give it up -- stack up the bundles of our past regrets, mistakes, sins, and hurts and give them up. It may mean writing all our regrets down on a sheet of paper and burning them or burying them. Or it may mean mentally jotting them down and visualizing Jesus taking an eraser and removing them completely. But we must give them up for us to get on to something new!
I'm not suggesting we simplistically pretend our mistakes and sins didn't happen. We can't stop consequences from our past from sometimes reappearing. But we can quit picking up the problems and "what iffing" them to death! We can quit going over them again and again in our minds. We can clean them out and if we re-find them, or they re-find us, we can consciously give them up again!
Peter denied the Lord three times in his most needed hour. Paul persecuted Christians before he knew the Lord. Neither could completely escape his past. But they chose to set them aside and not live with them. Instead, they chose to live for the Lord and let him take care of the past. As Paul put it, "Forgetting the past and straining toward what is ahead, I keep trying to reach the goal and get the prize for which God called me through Christ to the life above." (Philippians 3:13-14)
So how about the clutter in your heart? Is there anything you need to clean out and throw out so you can go on to the Lord's future for you? Then clean it out and let him help you start fresh and finish strong!

ahh.... that was so good and that really spoke in to me and my situation at the moment

...... Rewind......

That was it ?
I didn't like that much -
Can we do it again please ?

How many times a day does that happen ?
Do you ever feel like that -
I feel like that right now .
I woke up this morning and went :
' o.k. God ..... That was the weekend .. Hmm....
Could you hit rewind for me so I can redo all of that.'

The answer I got surprised me.
I felt god saying that things could of turned out differently . Things could have been so so so different had I made wise decisions and responded in a mature way to the situations that were so difficult .
By a simple choice I could have so affected those situations- there is an alternate plot line to this recent weekend . I blew it right out the door .

Now I don't think anyone likes knowing that they have failed.
It is particularly hard for me to face because I can never believe in myself for little things , nothing I do on a day- to -day basis is enough and I never feel worthy of anything.

The thing about life is that it happens only once and that it comes and goes soooo quickly.
One thing I need to learn to do is to take some time out before each day and to think about what I want to get out of it . Some times in a difficult situation it is better to stop and breathe before reacting. This is something I struggle with all the time .
When it comes to challenge and difficulty , I seem to be doing anything to stay above water and get through.
I am waving my arms around and behaving like a maniac and God is saying:

˜ what on earth are you doing there?- just swim , don't try and fight it - it will be so much easier if you learn to swim and go along with what I am trying to do here, than doing whatever you are doing there because as much as you try to get somewhere - this is where I am trying to take you, and what you are trying to do here and now is going to take you in the other direction .
so just agree and work with me - don't resist because it would just make my job that much easier.


I need to get rid of the regret and move on- all of the things that happened and were said are done and can't be changed - we can only work with today and the decisions and attitudes that I am choosing to have today are going to have a HUGE affect on the tomorrow in my life.

So carpe Dium - SEIZE THE DAY !

' And we know that god causes everything to work together for those who love god and are called according to his purpose for them
Romans 8:28

'I don't mean to say that I have already achieved these things or have already reached perfection .But I have press on to pocess that perfection for which Christ Jesus first possessed me. No brothers and sisters , I have not yet achieved , but I focus on this one thing : Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead . I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prise for which god, through Jesus Christ is calling us.
Let all who are spiritually mature hold onto theses things . If you disagree on some point , I believe god will make it plain to you but we must hold on to the progress we have already made
Philippians 3 :12-16

Rip my chest open
Take out my heart .
I won't need it anymore-
That's for sure.

Slap my face, pull my nose,
Pinch my arm and stand on my toes-
All of these things I CAN'T feel
And nothing ever seems to be real

All of my life, I have lived in fear
With nobody around to hear
What I experience night and day
No-one to say

I care for you
Or I love you
Until one day - 3rd July 2005
The first day I really felt alive

Jesus- my saviour came into my heart,
Opened my eyes
And gave me a new start

If all of this is true - then how can it be
That I no longer feel Jesus living in me ?

I WII LIVE FOR HIM

I will live for him......................

- When my whole body aches and i'm screaming on the inside

- When i am all alone, yet completely surrounded

- when i try to trust, but can't trust myself

.......... I will live for you when i can't live for me

When i walk through the valley , i know you are holding me

- I will not waver and i will not wander

- i will keep walking, keep trusting

THE PRINCESS

Princess?
Are you sure- not me
What do You really see
when you are looking at me ?

A princess
A daughter if the king of kings -
You were born of his likeness.
- you have your father's eyes you know
The bible will tell you so.

My father?
The most powerful man in the whole world
he created the heavens and earth-
or your natural father, which would you rather?
But I am not fit to be a princess ............ i am not worthy of a crown
I am sorry but i must turn your ofer down

Don't you see he has chosen you ,
he loves you so much , it is true.
He loves you enough that his son jesus died for you
if only you really knew how much he loves you

He wants you to let him into your life
he knows how you have been living , he wants to end all of this strife
He wants to heal your broken heart
and give you a new start

But i am nothing.
Don't you see,
I may look good on the outside .
but inside the pain is too much - what could God possibly do to help me ?
If God is so great then why is the world the way it is ?
and how can i trust him when i can't trust myself- i don't know what real trust is

Why does God love me - i am a sinner. i stuggle for control and have fights with my dinner
This is grace. Trust Jesus Christ and believe that he has taken your sins away.
How do i do that ?
come on , let's pray.

A princess- not me
What do you really see when you look at me ?
I wasn't a princess -how could i be ?
I was no princess untill God saved me

He took me in and clothed me in his grace
He set me apart and put me in a new place
a place where i belong and now finally i am FREE
free to be all i can possibly be

so here i am telling you ........ you are a beutiful princess and God loves you
You are a child of God and he wants to set you free