Its so oppressive and so depressing.
school work
o.k im smart-ish
i just get so tired and i cant be bothered
but i need to care
it gets me real pissed off
it makes me wana say:
FFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCK
Monday, April 30, 2007
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
Thursday, February 22, 2007
onwards and upwards
onwards and upwards.....
It seems i am moving up in the world....
Being a year 12 appears to be a big thing ...
and being part of the oldest year group in the school- well that's just a big deal is'nt it ?
whoop de doo
on a lighter note it seem i have go this self discovery thing down pat as i am now not afraid to say i am a freak as i am totally comfortable with myself yada yada...
But who really gives a shit ??
Not me-
I for one am quite comfortable here in my shell over looking the cliff of my future...
With so many things up ahead like the T.E.E, the opportunity of learning to drive and quite possibly failing, the school ball, uni and maybe even drum lessons....
Yes i am mosty certainly moving up in the world.....
It seems i am moving up in the world....
Being a year 12 appears to be a big thing ...
and being part of the oldest year group in the school- well that's just a big deal is'nt it ?
whoop de doo
on a lighter note it seem i have go this self discovery thing down pat as i am now not afraid to say i am a freak as i am totally comfortable with myself yada yada...
But who really gives a shit ??
Not me-
I for one am quite comfortable here in my shell over looking the cliff of my future...
With so many things up ahead like the T.E.E, the opportunity of learning to drive and quite possibly failing, the school ball, uni and maybe even drum lessons....
Yes i am mosty certainly moving up in the world.....
Friday, November 24, 2006
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
moooovvvvveeee!
Thousand Foot Krutch- move
Look, listen to my voice
If you're making the choice
Tell me all the girls and the boys
Either scream or rejoice
Let's make that noise
Either move or we will all be destroyed
[Chorus]
Move and show me what you can do
When you step into the circle and shake like we do
Move when you just can't take it
And move if you just feel like breaking it
Can you hear me? Stop, look, listen to my voice,
It was never my choice to feel all alone
This is my home
Back up , you don't know if you've never been here,
You've never been to the place inside, I face my fears
It takes everything I am
[Chorus x2]
Move and show me what you can do
When you step into the circle and shake like we do
Move when you just can't take it
And move if you just feel like breaking it
Move and show me what you can do
When you step into the circle and shake like we do
Move when you just can't take it
And move if you just feel like breaking it
If you come near me, stop, look, listen to my voice
If you're making the choice tell all the girls and the boys
Either scream or rejoice
Let's make that noise
Either move or we will all be destroyed
Back up and let go if you've never been here,
You've never been to the place inside, I face my fears,
It takes everything I am
[Chorus]
Move and show me what you can do
When you step into the circle and shake like we do
Move when you just can't take it
And move if you just feel like breaking it
I come crashing to the floor
And I know there must be more like me
I've seen this all before, I can't carry this anymore, break free
Breath, and leave until the storm is over
'Cause underneath, there's a diamond passing over
So breath, let's leave until the storm is over,
Because I want to take you away
[Chorus]
Move and show me what you can do
When you step into the circle and shake like we do
Move when you just can't take it
And move if you just feel like breaking it
This is a sik song.
It is about making the choice to move through the storm.
there is a choice: to take action or let it break you.
Thousand Foot Krutch are a cool christian Nu-metal Rock band from Ontario, Canada.
Look, listen to my voice
If you're making the choice
Tell me all the girls and the boys
Either scream or rejoice
Let's make that noise
Either move or we will all be destroyed
[Chorus]
Move and show me what you can do
When you step into the circle and shake like we do
Move when you just can't take it
And move if you just feel like breaking it
Can you hear me? Stop, look, listen to my voice,
It was never my choice to feel all alone
This is my home
Back up , you don't know if you've never been here,
You've never been to the place inside, I face my fears
It takes everything I am
[Chorus x2]
Move and show me what you can do
When you step into the circle and shake like we do
Move when you just can't take it
And move if you just feel like breaking it
Move and show me what you can do
When you step into the circle and shake like we do
Move when you just can't take it
And move if you just feel like breaking it
If you come near me, stop, look, listen to my voice
If you're making the choice tell all the girls and the boys
Either scream or rejoice
Let's make that noise
Either move or we will all be destroyed
Back up and let go if you've never been here,
You've never been to the place inside, I face my fears,
It takes everything I am
[Chorus]
Move and show me what you can do
When you step into the circle and shake like we do
Move when you just can't take it
And move if you just feel like breaking it
I come crashing to the floor
And I know there must be more like me
I've seen this all before, I can't carry this anymore, break free
Breath, and leave until the storm is over
'Cause underneath, there's a diamond passing over
So breath, let's leave until the storm is over,
Because I want to take you away
[Chorus]
Move and show me what you can do
When you step into the circle and shake like we do
Move when you just can't take it
And move if you just feel like breaking it
This is a sik song.
It is about making the choice to move through the storm.
there is a choice: to take action or let it break you.
Thousand Foot Krutch are a cool christian Nu-metal Rock band from Ontario, Canada.
Friday, October 20, 2006
Untitled
I went into the light to find myself, and find i did
a predicament of calamtiy, despair and sorrow
concealed within the fantasies of tomorrow.
A group of hypocrites is what i saw
deeply fixated in their own laws.
For what advocated so much good
would bring forth extreme affliction as time would reveal.
Oh how i stressed and strived to be,
i tried and tried but failed to see
i need not play their frivolous games
or else i too would turn out the same.
I went to the light to find myself
but find me i did not.
For it would seem that amid the aggregation of commotion and stratagem
i had indeed lost myself.
by me
a predicament of calamtiy, despair and sorrow
concealed within the fantasies of tomorrow.
A group of hypocrites is what i saw
deeply fixated in their own laws.
For what advocated so much good
would bring forth extreme affliction as time would reveal.
Oh how i stressed and strived to be,
i tried and tried but failed to see
i need not play their frivolous games
or else i too would turn out the same.
I went to the light to find myself
but find me i did not.
For it would seem that amid the aggregation of commotion and stratagem
i had indeed lost myself.
by me
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
Letting go
It is time.
Time to let go.
Time to move on.
A time for forgivness.
and a time to re-focus.
I'm getting back to basics.
i'm taking some time out for me to refocus and re-evaluate.
I need to remember why i am here and what i am living for.
i need to set my prorities straight
i need to learn to breathe again.
Amid everything i seem to have lost myself.
so i am having a break, a rest.
Im letting go of everything and starting anew.
A new beginning for every area of my life, relationships included.
So forgivness is key right now.
This time it is all about focusing on my study.
And getting my life back in balance.
Having time for me after giving of myself in so many areas.
I'm such a control freak, but i have had to realise that all that stressing doesn't do any favours.
It just gives me a huge headache.
This time i am doing it right.
I can't do it for someone else, it has to be for me.
Letting Go
To let go doesn't mean to stop caring;
it means i can't do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off, it's the realisation that i can't conrol another.
To let go is not to enable, but to allow learning from natural concequneces
To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is out of my hands
To let go is not to try to change or blame another, i can only change myself
To let go is not to care for, but to care about
To let go is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging outcomes;
but to allow others to effect their own outcomes
To let go is not to be portective,it is to permit another to face reality
To let go is not to deny, but accept
To let go is not to scold, nag or argue,
but to search my own shortcomings and to correct them
To let go is not to adjust everything to my own desires,
but to take each day as it comes
To let go is not to criticise and regulate anyone,
but to try to become what i dream to be
To let go is not to regret the past, but to grow and live for the future
To let go is to fear less and love more
Time to let go.
Time to move on.
A time for forgivness.
and a time to re-focus.
I'm getting back to basics.
i'm taking some time out for me to refocus and re-evaluate.
I need to remember why i am here and what i am living for.
i need to set my prorities straight
i need to learn to breathe again.
Amid everything i seem to have lost myself.
so i am having a break, a rest.
Im letting go of everything and starting anew.
A new beginning for every area of my life, relationships included.
So forgivness is key right now.
This time it is all about focusing on my study.
And getting my life back in balance.
Having time for me after giving of myself in so many areas.
I'm such a control freak, but i have had to realise that all that stressing doesn't do any favours.
It just gives me a huge headache.
This time i am doing it right.
I can't do it for someone else, it has to be for me.
Letting Go
To let go doesn't mean to stop caring;
it means i can't do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off, it's the realisation that i can't conrol another.
To let go is not to enable, but to allow learning from natural concequneces
To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is out of my hands
To let go is not to try to change or blame another, i can only change myself
To let go is not to care for, but to care about
To let go is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging outcomes;
but to allow others to effect their own outcomes
To let go is not to be portective,it is to permit another to face reality
To let go is not to deny, but accept
To let go is not to scold, nag or argue,
but to search my own shortcomings and to correct them
To let go is not to adjust everything to my own desires,
but to take each day as it comes
To let go is not to criticise and regulate anyone,
but to try to become what i dream to be
To let go is not to regret the past, but to grow and live for the future
To let go is to fear less and love more
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
What do i have to do for someone to listen?
Am i really not being heard - or just being ignored?
How many times do i have to say something before i am noticed
Do i need to keep repeating myself and going over things- like a cow chewing its cud.
Prehaps i need to buy a megaphone and shout it out for the Whole World to hear.
Maybe i should do a dance or sing a song....
But at the end of the day my opinion doesn't count for anything.
I don't count for much at all.
Am i really not being heard - or just being ignored?
How many times do i have to say something before i am noticed
Do i need to keep repeating myself and going over things- like a cow chewing its cud.
Prehaps i need to buy a megaphone and shout it out for the Whole World to hear.
Maybe i should do a dance or sing a song....
But at the end of the day my opinion doesn't count for anything.
I don't count for much at all.
Monday, September 18, 2006
Friday, September 15, 2006
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