What do i have to do for someone to listen?

Am i really not being heard - or just being ignored?

How many times do i have to say something before i am noticed

Do i need to keep repeating myself and going over things- like a cow chewing its cud.

Prehaps i need to buy a megaphone and shout it out for the Whole World to hear.

Maybe i should do a dance or sing a song....

But at the end of the day my opinion doesn't count for anything.

I don't count for much at all.

sore throat...

headache....

no energy ...

heaps of assignments to do ...

and a dabate....

it must be a monday...

This week was challenging, but i got through it.

I feel like i have achieved and conquered- another week over!

I went through and came out unmarked and unharmed.

Thank God for weekends....


"i'm walking on sunhine whoa
i'm walking on sunhine whoa
i'm walikng on sunshine whoa and don't it feel Good!"

friends.... you gotta love 'em



They say you can spend a lifetime building a friendship
and destroy it in a second.


It may takes years to build up trust...
But what happens when it is broken ??


ever say or do something you regretted later?

That sucks.



To act out through feelings.....
Our whole perception can change when we are hurt.


And once that feeling passes- what remains ??


can you ever take back what happened ??


Can you rebuild a friendship??


can you start over - forgive and forget??


or can you reconstruct the friendship you had??


It is much easier to Build a freindship that it is to try and fix a broken one ....

Stand In The Rain - Superchic[k]



She never slows down
She doesn’t know why
But she knows that when she’s all alone
It feels like it’s all coming down


She won’t turn around
The shadows are long
And she fears if she cries that first tear
The tears will not stop raining down


Chorus:
So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it’s all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won’t drown
And one day what’s lost can be found
You stand in the rain


She won’t make a sound
Alone in this fight with herself
And the fear’s whispering
If she stands, she’ll fall down



She wants to be found
The only way out is through everything
She’s running from
Wants to give up and lie down



So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it’s all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won’t drown
And one day what’s lost can be found
You stand in the rain



So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it’s all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won’t drown
And one day what’s lost can be found
You stand in the rain

~Wounds from a friend are better than many kisses from an enemy.
Provebs 27:6 NLT


~A friend loves at all times,
and a brother is born for adversity.
Proverbs 17:17 NIV


~A man of many companions may come to ruin,
but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother
proverbs 18:24 NIV









Even my best friend, the one I trusted completely,
the one who shared my food,
has turned against me.
Psalms 41:9 NLT


One should be kind to a fainting friend, but you have accused me without the slightest fear of the Almighty.
Job 6:14 NLT


"Is this the way you treat your friend David?" Absalom asked him. "Why aren't you with him?"
2 samuel 16:17 NLT

Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me
within your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with You, above the storm
Father, You are King over the flood
I will be still, know You are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with You, above the storm
Father, You are King over the flood
I will be still, know You are God

There is so much going on right now.
I feel as though i am being pulled in a million directions at once and there is expectation after expectation.
One of the main things in my vocabulary right now is "i can't".

But God says I can, right now i am in the palm of his hand and i am doing everything by his strength.
It makes me wonder.Who ever said i couldn't ?,
things are tough but i have God on my side.

Everything that i am facing now is helping me to trust and rely on God. Right now i am vonurable but his srength is a perfect match for my weakness.

I just need to trust and believe....


There are two switchfoot songs that come to mind...



"Meant To Live"
by Switchfoot

Fumbling his confidence
And wondring why the world has passed him by
Hoping that hes meant for more than arguments
And failed attempts to fly, fly

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside

Dreaming about providence
And whether mice or men have second tries
Maybe weve been livin with our eyes half open
Maybe were bent and broken, broken

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside

We want more than this worlds got to offer
We want more than this worlds got to offer
We want more than the wars of our fathers
And everything inside screams for second life

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live
We were meant to live





This Is Your Life"
by switchfoot

yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
yesterday is a promise that you've broken
don't close your eyes, don't close your eyes
this is your life and today is all you've got now
yeah, and today is all you'll ever have
don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes

this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
when the world was younger and you had everything to lose

yesterday is a kid in the corner
yesterday is dead and over

this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
when the world was younger and you had everything to lose

don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes

this is your life are you who you want to be
this is your life are you who you want to be

this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be
when the world was younger and you had everything to lose

and you had everything to lose

something my past didn't see

Something My Past Didn't See


Looking into the future
something my past didn't see.
The outcome of my experience
has allowed God to transform me.

Longing to be alive
for within I was dead.
Darkness was my company
and each day I dread.


Walking with a lost soul
Understanding nothing at hand
I once had a goal
My dreams turned to sand.

Seeking the face of comfort
To captivate my distressed mind.
can't give up on life
Hope, I must find.

Thank God I found hope
In the midst of the dark
Pursuing to find some light By
Until it penetrates in my heart.

Now that I'm blessed with life
and has allowed God to transform me.
I'm excited about the future
Something my past didn't see

Gaye D. Hight

From www.christianstories.com

All In Due Time

By: Kathy Schroeder


How often, Lord, I've wanted life
to be as I preferred,
impatient to reach all my goals,
insisting I be heard.

How many times I questioned You,
embarking on a feat,
unwilling to be passenger,
but in the driver's seat.

How seldom I was patient
as I begged that life be calm,
not believing all along
that I was in Your palm.

How fast possessions slip away,
though often I would cling
to things thought safe instead of trusting
what Your will would bring.

Be with me, Lord, as I search for
another hill to climb.
I know rewards will come to me,
all in the Lord's due time.